Bon Jovi is touring again! In a world that needs them more than ever. (and they know it)

A viral video of Odessa, Ukraine, standing their ground with It’s My Life.
The band shared this video on their socials, and Jon has called it a humbling experience.
With “We Don’t Run”, dedicated to Ukraine, on the first show of their new tour, Bon Jovi answered.
🎶🎸🇺🇦🕊️☮️

Omaha, Nebraska, 1 April 2022

After more than 2 years Bon Jovi is touring again!
The previous tour was This House Is Not For Sale, which ran from February 2017 to October 2019.
The already socially conscious record 2020, originally scheduled for March 2020, was pushed forward to October 2020, and changed to include new poignant material, reflecting the spirit of the times.

The tour “2020” was cancelled for obvious reasons and the new tour, called “2022” has started on April 1st.
At this point I could “only” find dates for April, so it looks like they re weary  not to start too big and then have to cancel.
To minimize Covid risks, they travel in a bubble, which also reminds me of an otherwise unrelated yet entertaining movie I’m currently watching on Netflix called “The Bubble”, about a movie set (not a rock band) in a bubble.

Shortly before the tour started, an interview with Jon was published in the Charlotte Observer and it gives a behind the scenes impression of how this tour has come together.

“In light of COVID and how long it’s been since anyone’s done this,
we went into an arena for three weeks and had rehearsals, and it was the most joyous thing I may have ever done in my life, career-wise.”

Jon also shares how the setlists for these shows are created, and it’s an exciting recipe, that would have me visiting multiple shows if they came to Europe! 
The recipe is 70% hits, the songs the audience definitely wants to hear, and 30% new material and, quote, “obscure tracks”.

From that same interview in the Charlotte Observer:

“The hits take up 70%, and that leaves you with 30% for new material and obscure tracks. That’s the kind of breakdown.
(So it leaves) you with X amount of slots for your artistic,
you know, ‘listen-and-look-at-me’ moments, when it’s just about
‘I don’t care if you don’t wanna hear this song, I wanna play it.
I’m allowed one or two of those.”

And the show in Omaha on April 1st showed there is an acoustic set in the middle of the show, so that means you’re going to be hearing different versions of songs as well.
Overall this tour’s setlist promises to be very exciting!

It may seem like a given, that Bon Jovi plays lesser known material, because  indeed having varied setlists has always been one of their main features.
But the previous tour didn’t have any surprises, and in all honesty, the only tour that was actually ever set out to include “obscure” material, was The Circle tour, 2010.
So I think it was the three weeks of rehearsals that set the tone for things to be different and fresh.
Jon saying there is room to play around with the setlist is not new; even the 70-30 rule is kind of familiar to what he’s said about it in the past.
But digging deeper into the catalog- as the setlist of the first night proves they are doing – that is new.

“I’ve been blessed. I’ve released 17 albums in my career. That’s a lot of music.
You go, ‘Oh, this one would be nice to pull out again.’
And it’s not an easy task, because the audience wants hear Song X, Y and Z.
You gotta do all the obvious hits.  You’re not gonna not play ‘Livin’ On a Prayer,’ and ‘It’s My Life,’ and ‘You Give Love a Bad Name. [..]
Believe me, it’s a good problem to have.”

“Truly, it is like a very simple [process] but nonetheless a Rubik’s Cube.”

The first night the Rubik’s Cube landed with the acoustic set on top, that included We Don’t Run, dedicated to the Ukraine, and fan favorite Someday I’ll Be Saturday Night.
Four sides of the cube were both songs the audience definitely needs to hear or they’ll start rioting, as well as songs that can be moved around.  
And for everyone flipping to the bottom there was the surprise of finding Older,  an upbeat song that will nonetheless cut to the core of fear of growing older for anyone who was an adult Bon Jovi fan at the time of the original release;
And  The Radio Saved My Life Tonight and Love’s The Only Rule.

On March 23, Bon Jovi shared a viral video on their socials, showing the people of Odessa getting their city ready to defend their city, by creating barricades with sandbags.
“It’s My Life” was blasting through the speakers, there were drums on site, with someone pounding them along with the track! 

In my opinion The Radio Saved My Life Tonight and Love’s The Only Rule, must be viewed within the same context of We Don’t Run being dedicated to the Ukraine: The context of this war.

And with Bon Jovi’s anthems being so close-knit to the war in Ukraine, I’m putting my money on Save the World being played sometime in the very nearest of Bon Jovi futures.

“Maybe I can’t save the world
But as long as you believe
Maybe I could save the world”

With all things you could possibly be doing to save the world;
Make believing in Bon Jovi one of them.

.
~Suzanne
Rock Star Writer

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concert setlist
Bon Jovi, Omaha, Nebraska

April 1, 2022

I ve marked the newest (2020) and the rarest (surprise!).

01. Limitless (2020)
02. The Radio Saved My Life Tonight (surprise!)
03. You Give Love A Bad Name
04. We Weren’t Born To Follow
05. It’s My Life
06. Just Older (surprise!)
07. Born To Be My Baby
08. Beautiful Drug (2020)
09. Let It Rain (2020)
10. Keep The Faith 
11. American Reckoning (2020)

Acoustic set:
12. We Don’t Run (acoustic) 

13. Someday I’ll Be Saturday Night (acoustic)

14. Who Says You Can’t Go Home
15. Lost Highway 
16. Wanted Dead or Alive 
17. Do What You Can (2020)
18. This House Is Not for Sale 
19. Have a Nice Day 
20. Livin’ on a Prayer 

Encore:
21. Love’s The Only Rule (surprise!)
22. Bad Medicine 

That was it! 

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This Rock Star Writer blog is an element of “Rock Star” [phase 2]

Title: “Rock Star”
or “Rock Star yoga/ business/ writer”

artists: Suzanne Beenackers, little bear Puux           
art form: performance art
phase 1: earliest expressions, mixed work, July 2019 – March 2022
phase 2: April 2022 – 

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2. Yoga Blog: Daily Bon Jovi Yoga
3. World Between Worlds
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Jon Bon Jovi revealed here with Julie Brown, that he wakes up with a fishbowl full of coffee. And that he’s a great flirt.

I often realize that I have never communicated what my *cough*  business model is. This is because I’m so vastly uncomfortable with it, that unconsciously I m still waiting to be saved from it.
Because surely, something better should come along, right?
But it never did.

So last week, I reconciled with what I have known for half a year or longer:
That there is no business model.

I make things and then you give me money if you want to.
That’s it, that’s the business.
Fin.

So I ve suspected for a while now, that I need to become as savvy as they come with regard to choosing my donation options.
And that I’m not even a full member of the “creator economy”! Which still has the aura of transaction, that selling something (early access, extra content, personal access) however volatile, is still at the core of the business model.

On a side-note: I m also the only blogger in the world who does not like Substack, which is a highly praised platform for writers.
Creators can have subscribers, but there is no shame on having everything set to “public”.
It would have been ideal, if didn’t instinctively dislike it. And after following a famous Dutch writer and supporting a hilarious American writer there – who I should have stuck with supporting because if not her, then what hope is there in the world for people like me who write far less comical? – after that I disliked Substack even more.

And if even the gentle, artist friendly platforms Substack and Patreon are not to your liking, then trust me; You need extra time to process how totally out of whack it is, what you want to do.
How “not done”.
Silly.
Childish.
Stupid.

But when I recovered from being the financial harlequin among bloggers, I pulled myself up by my chequered bootstraps, and stuck to my tinklers.
I create. You give. Or not, because your freedom to give what you want, is only matched by my freedom to create whatever I want. And those options include “nothing”.

I m guessing in that red cup, there’s a little bit of coffee straight from the fishbowl’s mouth…

And then I learned about a platform that immediately clicked, “Buy Me A Coffee”. Even though it had limited payment options (G Pay and credit card), but initially I thought that might have been a choice by the creator I have sponsored with it. 
It wasn’t.
I haven’t found a way to activate or find other payment options than those two either, although the platform promised to support local payment systems and I always thought entire Europe pays with debit card by now, but okay.
Maybe I missed something and installing more payment options is just another thing I ll discover in the future…

Because I definitely missed something else last week, when I finalized my decision and created a Buy Me A Coffee account!
Oh dear.

And as soon as I saw it, I knew I had to change it, and after that replace the link on all the outlets where I had already mentioned the Buy Me A Coffee link.
Which were at least 1 YouTube video, one Dutch about page, one Dutch blogpost, and three different social media, but it could have been even more.

Meanwhile I kept working, and new material was saved in drafts, thinking I would be able to post them soon.
One unposted Life lessons in Bon Jovi songs video, one White Tigress yoga video, and one drafted Daily Bon Jovi blog later, I just put myself on a creators embargo until I had it fixed.

The mistake I had made when I had finally committed to being a donation based creator and make a Buy Me A Coffee account, was that I had overlooked that I had to manually change the user handle.
So unless I identified with being “nFFDP4LFsW”, I had to go into my account and come up with a limited-digit user handle that was more pleasing to the eye.
I soon discovered I couldn’t use my whole name: Suzanne Beenackers was too long.
And because I didn’t have an alternative, I left it that way for three pieces of unpublished English Rock Star content.

Until I realized something! Wait a minute! I had published a Dutch blog, so apparently I wasn’t too worried about that audience ending up clicking the page with the numeric handle!
And it “clicked”.

Because although there will be Dutch people, like me supporting the YouTube creator of my choosing, that will support me through Buy Me A Coffee;
It really is primarily an international thing.

I do not have to have a link/ handle that matches my Dutch outlets:
I can choose an English one.
So today, after one week of letting all my English content fall by the wayside and ultimately me stopping to create (and getting quite desperate tbh), I logged onto the site and typed letter by letter, anxious if it would not be too long!
Rock
Star
Writer

And it fit!

So for those with a credit card, G Pay, and with a joyous desire to pay me, I now have a Buy Me A Coffee account, with a beautiful link:
https://www.buymeacoffee.com/RockStarWriter

We’re there.

~Suzanne
Rock Star Writer

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WOAH! Jon Bon Jovi 60! 60 live performances to celebrate!

video: early beginnings!

Jon Bon Jovi turns 60 today, and to celebrate this, I have created a list of 60 live performances that we can enjoy!

I’ve already put over 8 hours in, so I will make this quick and leave you with what could turn out to be your most beloved playlist of 2022.
1. THE LINK
just click and press play, that’s how these things go down.
2. the story behind the list from the description box
3. A list with ALL the songs.
“Do you have to?” I hear you ask.
Yes, I do.
There’s 60 songs on there, and because YouTubers come and go, one or two are bound to disappear.

If I keep a list here, I can check which song went awol as soon as the number of songs drops below 60. And I can replace it.

Enjoy my fellow Bon Jovi friends!

~Suzanne

1. THE LINK

just click and press play, that’s how these things go down.
Happy Birthday Jon Bon Jovi! | 2022 03 02
60 live performances to celebrate this iconic birthday of the man himself.

2. the story behind the list from description box

From the earliest of stadiums in Japan 1984, to their earth shattering, bells ringing, angels whistling performances at Wembley 1995.
Enjoy!

I want to use this description box for 2 things: 1. Explain how the list was created, but first
2. acknowledge the creators of all the videos.

CREATORS
Thank you to all the YouTubers who are remastering and sharing the extensive bootleg library, and all those who recorded the originals in particular in the 80s and 90s. The “bootleggers roll your tapes” phrase from Jon can be heard several times I believe!
The YouTubers I want to acknowledge by name because they made my work so much easier, and this list relies so extensively on them are: PabloSantaFe87, hAnD90, Damned TV and Bon Jovi Live Concerts.

HOW THIS LIST 1984-1996 WAS CREATED
The songs are chronological, so the oldest at the top and recordings from 1996 at the bottom.
I preferred the performance to be as close to the release date of the song as possible. So f.e. 1986 performances from Slippery When Wet (1986) album tracks.
But if performances from a later date were significantly better, I chose those.
This means in particular for 1986-1989, that the albums are not recognizable in their purest form. F.e. the 1989 bracket has Wild In The Streets, from the 1986 album.
Other choices I made, when choosing which recording to share, were:
-stadium/ large crowds preferred over a more intimate setting
-recordings with video were preferred over those with stills (audio only)

-correct date (early recordings of the hit) preferred over quality of the recording.
Sometimes this meant I added other performances of the song as well, on a later date.

For Diamond Ring I added two performances, years apart.
The second one contains the story, of how this song came into being, and why it was played so long before finally making it onto a record.

And finally, I closed with an extra Always performance, because it is often an encore song; And the Wembley 1995 performance of Livin’ On a Prayer/ You Give Love A Bad Name.

These songs were actually openers, and not closing the show, in 1995.
But since I have seen the movie Bohemian Rhapsody a gazzilion times, which ends with the 20 minute show from Queen for Live Aid/ in Wembley, I just couldn’t resist, and had to close this list with a bang!

I hope you enjoy the list.

It took me 8 hours to create, so no birthday post for Jon Bon Jovi today.
But I expect to write one soon, at:
https://rockstarwriternijmegen.com/
(that’s this blog!)

So subscribe to that blog, or search it to look if I actually gave Jon Bon Jovi a worthy birthday story. So far I only have “the biggest rock star of his generation”, so it needs a little bit more! 

Have a great show!

~Suzanne
Rock Star Writer
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Okay, you’re still here, babe?
You know what’s coming now. I’m going to list out 60 performances.
Ready?

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4
3
2
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9:34
Bon Jovi – First Videos (Get Ready/Runaway) in Japan [1984]
TeoKeh

6:36
Bon Jovi – Bang Bang / Shot Through The Heart (Tokyo 1985)
PabloSantaFe87

10:47
Bon Jovi – In & Out of Love (Live 1985)
BonJovi LiveTours

7:08
Bon Jovi – Tokyo Road (Subtitulado)
Bon Jovi Subs

6:20
Bon Jovi | Heart Of America | Farm Aid I | Champaign 1985
hAnD90

4:23
Bon Jovi – Let it Rock (live from Slippery Tour 1987)
Damned TV

4:13
Bon Jovi – You Give Love A Bad Name (Tokyo 1986)
MXJ Productions HD

8:30
Bon Jovi – Wanted Dead Or Alive Live Moscow (best Richie Sambora performance)
Nico DíazE

7:29
Bon Jovi – Drift Away (Sydney 1987)
hAnD90

4:40
Bon Jovi – I’d Die For You – Live in Tokyo 1988
Bon Jovi Live

6:06
Bon Jovi – Livin’ On A Prayer – Live In Tokyo 1988
Bon Jovi Live

10:30
Bon Jovi | Get Back | Travellin’ Band | Legendary Wembley Jam | London 1988
hAnD90

10:08
Bon Jovi – Bad Medicine – Live In Tokyo 1988
Bon Jovi Live

8:27
Bon Jovi – Homebound Train (Live Brussels 1988)
elisrcence88

2:54
Bon Jovi – Ride Cowboy Ride (Tokyo 1988)
PabloSantaFe87

5:02
Bon Jovi – Wild In The Streets (Moscow 1989)
hAnD90

6:18
Bon Jovi – Lay Your Hands On Me | Pro Shot | Milton Keynes 1989
Bon Jovi Live Concerts

6:19
Bon Jovi – Born To Be My Baby (Rotterdam 1989) The Best Performance
PabloSantaFe87

8:35
Bon Jovi – Living In Sin (Niagara Falls 1989) Best Performance
PabloSantaFe87

13:00
Bon Jovi | Blood On Blood | Best Performance | Rotterdam 1989
hAnD90

9:21
Bon Jovi – I’ll Be There For You (Philadelphia 1989)
hAnD90

7:41
Bon Jovi – Livin’ On A Prayer / Wanted Dead Or Alive (Los Angeles 1989)
hAnD90

5:45
Bon Jovi – Never Say Goodbye (Santiago, Chile 1990)
PabloSantaFe87

6:07
Bon Jovi | Wild Is The Wind | Best Performance | Osaka 1991
hAnD90

5:00
Bon Jovi – Diamond Ring (Yokohama 1991) Best Quality
Bon Jovi Live Concerts

4:49
Bon Jovi – We All Sleep Alone – (HQ AUDIO – LIVE VERSION)
Juan Manuel Medina

6:47
Bon Jovi – The Sole Truth (New Jersey 1991)
hAnD90

7:17
Bon Jovi – Cadillac Man (Osaka 1991)
PabloSantaFe87

5:59
Bon Jovi – Blaze Of Glory – Live An Evening with Bon Jovi 1992 HD amazing sustain Bass Alec Such!
Bon Jovi Uruguay Fan

5:34
Bon Jovi Little Bit of Soul An Evening With Bon Jovi New York 1992
SoundofMadness88

5:50
Bon Jovi – With A Little Help From My Friends
Carlos Recinos

3:00
Bon Jovi – Blood Money (Buffalo 1993)
PabloSantaFe87

5:03
Bon Jovi | I Believe | Best Performance | Oslo 1993
hAnD90

7:31
Bon Jovi – Keep the Faith (Stockholm 1993)
Damned TV

7:45
Bon Jovi – I’ll Sleep When I’m Dead (Argentina 1993)
PabloSantaFe87

6:54
Bon Jovi – In These Arms (Buenos Aires 1993)
Damned TV

2:37
Bon Jovi – Can’t Help Falling In Love (Oslo 1993) Elvis Presley Cover
PabloSantaFe87

7:39
Bon Jovi – Bed Of Roses (Milan 1993)
PabloSantaFe87

4:32
Bon Jovi – If I Was Your Mother (Quebec City 1993)
hAnD90

11:29
Bon Jovi – Dry County (Hamburg 1993)
hAnD90

3:38
Bon Jovi – Fear (live, 1993)
LoveYouAlec

2:50
Bon Jovi – I Want You (acoustic / Nashua 1993)
hAnD90

1:37
Bon Jovi | Alison | Elvis Costello Cover | Dublin 1993
hAnD90

11:15
Bon Jovi – I’ll Be There For You (Best Ad-libs / Osaka 1993)
hAnD90

4:37
“SOMEDAY I’LL BE SATURDAY NIGHT” Bon Jovi – Unplugged – MTV studios 1994 (HD)
Bon Jovi para Brazukas

5:22
Bon Jovi – Always (Madison Square Garden 1994) Acoustic
PabloSantaFe87

6:17
Bon Jovi – Hey God (Europe Music Awards 1995)
PabloSantaFe87

5:21
Bon Jovi – Something For The Pain (Argentina 1995)
Sambora MX

6:59
‘THIS AIN’T A LOVE SONG’ BON JOVI (GERMANY 1995 – Rock am Ring) HD + BETTER AUDIO AND VIDEO
Bon Jovi para Brazukas

6:53
Bon Jovi – These Days (Best Performance! / Johannesburg 1995)
hAnD90

7:06
Bon Jovi – Lie to Me (Deer Creek 1995)
Damned TV

1:04
Bon Jovi – Because The Night (Quito 1995) Patti Smith Cover – A Capella
PabloSantaFe87

6:35
Bon Jovi – Damned (Brasil 1995)
PabloSantaFe87

7:03
Bon Jovi – My Guitar Lies Bleeding In My Arms (Ultimate Remaster)
É Bom Jovem

6:35
Bon Jovi – (It’s Hard) Letting You Go (Johannesburg 1995)
Damned TV

6:04
Bon Jovi – Something to Believe In (live in Yokohama 1996)
Damned TV

4:23
Bon Jovi – Diamond Ring (Live)
Bon Jovi FAN channel

8:34
Bon Jovi | Always | Incredible Performance | Wantagh 1995
hAnD90

3:55
Bon Jovi – All I Want Is Everything (Landgraaf 1996)
MXJ Productions HD

8:21
Bon Jovi – Livin’On A Prayer /You Give Love A Bad Name – Wembley 1995 (25th Anniversary)
Bon Jovi Official Live Concerts

That was it! 

 

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updated: Rock Star Yoga Studio [ NEW ]

I m going to start an online yoga studio – but I am a week delayed. In Europe the threat of war has become very real (although not as urgent as in Ukraine and for the citizens of Russia)
But I had to cope with that: I needed to understand if I still wanted to pursue teaching yoga online on YouTube.
And I will, because I think it’s more important than ever to come together and unite across the globe, celebrating the things that bind and unite us.

I will start making yoga videos this week.
New videos + new channel trailers soon! 

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Bon Jovi 1985-1995 Deep cuts and cover songs (live)

video: just a snippet of Cadillac Man, lured me back in!

Click photo for the playlist. The first song is The Heart Of America, a song that was played only once. If I remember correctly, also Bon Jovi’s first show for a mega-crowd, at Farm Aid 1985. Remastered by hAnD90, who also picked the photo.

For months I ve mostly been Bon Jovi free.
In the stress of getting back to my yoga mat and yoga business after what we’ll call a yoga sabbatical the size of one pandemic, give or take 2 years, it was as if I couldn’t listen to music without feeling it distracted my thoughts and made focusing and prioritizing even more difficult.
I ve cancelled all news subscriptions, streaming services and cable, and only watch series or movies as a social activity.
Entertainment has been turned down pretty much close to zero, so that I can focus.
And I haven’t been listening to music, or at least I didn’t until a new upload on YouTube awoke something that I had not seen or felt this year!
Songs Written by Jon Bon Jovi & Notable Covers

The video contains footage from other artists performing songs by Jon Bon Jovi, but it also has footage from Bon Jovi performing them. 

And at 2 minutes I was WIDE awake when Cadillac Man from Osaka 1991 came by! 

It reminded me of the list of 102 deep cuts and rare tracks, that I had created 18 months ago or something.
A playlist that had been suffering from videos falling out, it now contained only 97 tracks. And I knew it had not been complete to begin with. Ever since creating it, I had realized there were plenty of songs not on there.

Which in turn, was a not so gentle reminder I needed to get my shit together, because for my YouTube series Life lessons in Bon Jovi songs, where I started with the first album, it WAS important to get all the deep cuts and rare tracks of the 80s lined up!
I knew I had been stalling in this YouTube series, but I also knew that once I started making headway, I was not prepared because I didn’t know what the songs were that were not on the studio albums.
I had not figured out what the complete list was of non-album Bon Jovi tracks, and the list that I had created a while back, the 102 tracks one, was not complete.

So yes, hearing Cadillac Man, Osaka 1992, in that fresh upload freaked me out. Unexpectedly.
But also: It got me back in.
What an amazing performance.
And there’s something intriguing about the year, because this is way before  the Keep The Faith tour, and years after the Jersey Syndicate Tour.

What was this?
Did they have a mini tour, in Japan, pre- Keep The Faith recording?
So many questions!
And one of the many that I will get answers to, now that I m back to listening to Bon Jovi and studying their history.

So the deal was sealed at the 2 minute marker, but it didn’t stop there.
At 3:30 Bon Jovi performing the Cher song, Does Anybody Really Fall In Love Anymore. That New Jersey album outtake with that slightly hoarse and husky voice!!
At 6:22 These Open Arms (2005)! OMG OMG. This song is so good, I m pretty sure there are countries where there are laws against pulling songs like this from your album, instead of putting them on the record and turn them into the giant hit they deserve to be. Or there should be.
At 8:20 the song Burn With Me (2013) that we ALL know should have been on the What About Now album.

It reminded me of all the occasions Bon Jovi had failed to put forth their strongest songs, but more importantly: It reminded me of ME failing everything Bon Jovi I wanted to do, and want to do!
Update the list with 102 gems, even when I knew it had been incomplete, just make sure the 102 songs are on there.
And dive into sorting out the deep cuts from the 80s so that I have them lined up for my project Life lessons in Bon Jovi songs.

So, I did.

Restored (the 102 gems): 
Bon Jovi 1985 – 2020 Hidden Gems In Chronological Order

And new:
Bon Jovi 1985-1995 Deep cuts and cover songs (live)

And to top it off, I very unofficially decided to get back to teaching yoga online, pronto. If you want to get on the wagon for that, I ll leave you the links below.

It almost feels like the past 24 hours I heard more Bon Jovi songs, than the past 6 months altogether. My ears are ringing, my heart is pounding, and I m gonna guess I m gonna sleep absolutely terrible tonight.

But I feel more alive than I have in a million years.

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I think this is something I should have told you a long time ago. But I chose to save it for when after a six week hiatus – six weeks where I damn well knew what I wanted to do here, it wasn’t that I didn’t know where to start – I finally write a post again.
Figuring that since I still not feel like writing a Bon Jovi inspired post, nor creating a Bon Jovi inspired video, and every day there is new drama to be dealt with;
I need to change the game.

Because every day there has either been recovering, decompressing from events or simply a way too busy social calendar;
Or it was marked by new mayhem, or adventures coming my way.

In the last 48 hours I ended up in the dentist chair after a family dinner and set my kitchen on fire after trying to clarify butter for the first time in 5 years and forgetting it was on the stove. It was a saucepan with boiling black oil when I discovered it.
And that was after recovering from post-vaccination rage.

Other events were several digital shitstorms and threatening situations, two days of migraine, and Covid related mayhem that ultimately turned out to be absolutely harmless.
If you had spoken to me in these first 12 days of the new year, it would have been hard to tell the difference between me and that dark witch from Harry Potter played by Helena Bonham Carter.
Lestrange.
Bella Lestrange I think it is.

So yeah, things were bad. And since I have chosen my main topic to be Bon Jovi, I think that comes with a set of responsibilities!
One of them being you don’t show up when you’re capable of taking Harry Potter’s head off.

So unless I feel Bon Jovi – worthy, I stay away.

This is how I ultimately described it a few days ago:

But what I m pretty sure I have brushed on just lightly, making it seem unimportant, is that the essence of me, the me-at-my-core, is not a Bon Jovi fan but a Guns N Roses fan.

The positive-life-lessons, inspiring-words me, is someone I only see when the sun shines and everything goes smooth;
Dirty, nasty, sexy, antagonist me however?
Much higher chance of running into daily!

So if I want to make this blog Rock Star Writer work, if I want to start doing daily Bon Jovi yoga AND writing for the blog named after it;
If I want to make my two English YouTube channels work, and if I want to start showing up for my Dutch yoga channel again (which I do)?
Then I need to start including that side of me.

Because if I keep it a sunny day’s drive only;
2022 is not going to be, like the tweet says, what we all need it to be.

So I m gonna need you to buckle up, so I can show myself to you.
In all my random messiness, anger, and evilness.

Not because I want to, not because I think it would not be more preferable to be a little less out there, and at least take some of the edges off.

But because I’ve tried that, and we’re now at the point where it’s leading to 6 week hiatuses.

So next time I look or feel like that 80s picture of Guns N Roses, that I included in this post; Like a half naked, wasted, rock star without a sense of which way is up, and I probably just set fire to my kitchen?
Then I will no longer go missing in action.

I ll show up.

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Our own Asbury Park

At Christmas 2003, Jon Bon Jovi joined Bruce Springsteen on stage.
They had sung together before, and they would sing together after, but this night had a little extra something special because it was at the Convention Hall in Asbury Park.
And Asbury Park was not just in New Jersey, the state where both Jon Bon Jovi as well as Bruce Springsteen are from, but it is also the title from the debut album from Bruce Springsteen:
Greetings From Asbury Park, NJ.
Asbury Park, released in 1972, was the album that had started it all for Bruce Springsteen, and Jon Bongiovi became a fan.

Asbury Park was also the location of The Stone Pony, a venue that since its opening in 1974 has been the epicenter of the New Jersey music scene.
And perhaps most remarkably: Asbury Park was also where in 1980, Bruce Springsteen had joined a cover band on stage, called Atlantic City Expressway.
The name of their young singer?
Jon Bongiovi. 

Bruce Springsteen and Jon Bon Jovi (he changed his name when he formed the band) are both linked to this park.
Asbury Park was one of the locations visited in the coming of age movie Blinded By The Light (2019), based on the memoir of the writer Sarfraz Manzoor.
I ve included a trailer at the bottom of this post.

In the movie Javed, the main character, grows up in the 80s in a small town in England, and Bruce’s music changes his life. He develops himself as a writer and he and a friend visit New Jersey in the final scenes.
Taking snapshots of Springsteen locations.
One of them, is Asbury Park.

The movie Blinded By The Light was endorsed by Bruce Springsteen who gave 17 songs to the movie to be used, chosen by the makers of the film.
He even performed on opening night.

And the author Sarfraz Manzoor has been to 180 Bruce Springsteen concerts, has interviewed him multiple times because he’s a journalist, and he gets recognized by him at concerts.

But the movie is of course about all that came before that.

In Blinded By The Light, Javed hijacks the school radio station with his friend, to let everybody listen to Bruce Springsteen.
He feels that, although people laugh at him because it’s “already” 1987, Bruce Springsteen will speak to the other students of his college, as he has spoken to him and his friend Roops.
That’s why he hijacks the boot and plays the music over the speakers.

It’s a movie about many things, but one of them is a remarkable double one. Like a Russian doll, it is the same story within a story (within a story?).
Because Sarfraz Manzoor, or Javed in the movie, inspires his 1987 peers to get into Springsteen even though he started making music in the 70s already.
In the 80s, Bruce Springsteen was era-wise comparable to Queen, The Rolling Stones and Elton John;
He was still successful, popular, active both in making records as well as touring, in the 80s;
But he had started a decade earlier.
And that, made him “uncool”.

Javed sold Bruce Springsteen to his peers, just like Roops had sold it to him.

And in 2019? Here comes the little Russian doll!
The 2019 movie of that story, Blinded By The Light, has inspired a new generation to listen to Bruce Springsteen. 

It illustrates that rock star success can only be eternal if fans tell their stories to others. If we keep writing, and creating, and remastering bootlegs.
If we keep showing up on forums, or whatever it is that is your chosen form of connecting to other fans, and maybe you even do make an effort to draw in new ones too!
And share your love for Springsteen, or, since my work here revolves around Bon Jovi, maybe you make an effort to introduce Bon Jovi to new fans.

But there is a catch.
Just like the maker of Blinded By The Light, wanted to get Bruce Springsteen on board before she would even lift a finger trying to get the film financed, all that art inspired by world famous artists and interpretations of their work that are in my opinion ultimately NECESSARY to sustain your success and let it crossover to younger generations;
That same art, leans dangerously close to the cliff of violating copyrights.

If you try to find Guns N’ Roses concerts on YouTube you will find them only on their official channel. All others will be taken down, by management from the band.
And for all concerts, not just Guns N’Roses, audio and photographic equipment were forbidden at concerts, until the mobile phone became a camera and it became impossible to keep them off the premises.
Books written about artists, to this day, often infuriate the artist who feels their name are being exploited.

When in my opinion the truth is, that if you want to last, if you want to push the bar of immortality and leaving your legacy;
EMBRACE IT.

About two weeks ago I made a tweet, I can’t even remember exactly what it said, and it was more that I felt CALLED to say it – like I could turn my face to the heavens and say “I told them! I did my part!”- somewhere in the lines of Bon Jovi should start thinking of curating their legacy professionally.
Like a museum.

In Pittsburgh there’s the Warhol museum where all his objects are indexed, stored, sometimes displayed depending on what they are.
It is THE SYSTEM that makes museums good at what they do.

If Bon Jovi had a system for storing, archiving, and the reusing, releasing, and displaying their material, not only would it be an absolute walk in the park, to make a Bon Jovi museum (in Asbury Park, perhaps?!)-
but everything that they already have, would start making money.
It would start working for them.

So there are ways to avoid having fans interpret, hoard, and upload your material;
Just get a team of professionals who will do the same thing, but all under one roof, under your command, and because you supply them with all your stuff;
Your team will win.

There even might be a way to avoid people publishing books about your band or about you as an artist;
Just write better official books, publish more photo work.
Do a better job of giving fans what they apparently are dying to spend money on, and make sure that creditcard is thrown at your direction and marginalize what any snooping pop journalist can make covering your life’s work.

I think some of you already know where I am heading with this, the example of the fine line of copyright infringements. Because the hAnD90 channel on YouTube is empty.
This channel regularly uploaded concerts, and since 2020 it used the live premiere function, which meant that Bon Jovi fans could chat with each other while all watching the show.
It resulted in an enthusiastic community.
And now the channel is emptied out, or locked away. 
If you have Instagram you can look for the hAnD90 channel there- the last photo almost 100% sure contains information about why it is currently empty.

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A 1998 cd bootleg. Easily available in some countries, yet quite impossible in others.

But I m betting my Bruce Springsteen & Bon Jovi 1998 bootleg concert cd for it, it has something to do with copyrights one way or the other.
Either from the band themselves, who after decades and decades of encouraging bootleggers to “roll their tapes” have become more unpredictable in what they do or do not allow;
Or even worse, copyright warnings or punishment from YouTube.
These ones are even nastier because you never find out what the problem was exactly.

So I m betting one of those two is the reason the hAnD90 channel is not available now.

And it made me think. Ponder. And ultimately it made me DECIDE. 
But in combination with seeing the movie, about the crucial role fans, books, bootlegs, fan art, plays in bringing the work to new generations-
it also made me see the light.
The thing about the fan art I am creating, that I had not seen.

What I saw for the expression of my fan art, which is Rock Star Yoga, or yoga for Bon Jovi fans, were these two things:

1. It’s not yoga, it is a gospel!

Welcome to Jonny’s church of rock n roll! 
Ever since the first thought of Rock Star Yoga sprung to mind, in 2019, I knew Bon Jovi fans were almost incompatibel by the very nature of who we are, with yoga.
It is no wonder I was in my Bon Jovi fan hiatus when I started yoga and was a yoga teacher, because the two are separate languages.
So I knew Rock Star Yoga was going to be FOR Bon Jovi fans, so they could do yoga too. 
But the hijacking of the radio station in the movie, and the realization the we, in 2021, have an opportunity ( would say responsibility!) to give Bon Jovi to future generations.
And I will start with people who do yoga.

Through Rock Star Yoga I can not just connect Bon Jovi fans to yoga- but also the other way around. I can inspire yoga fans to start listening to Bon Jovi.
And that is exactly what I am going to do. Mission added!

But in that mission, to keep the Bon Jovi legacy alive and to let new people get acquianted with it, we cannot afford to build our house on quicksand…
Which brings me to:

2. It needs to be ours.

In 2019 I named this site Rock Star Yoga Nijmegen, in 2020 I redubbed it Rock Star Writer Nijmegen- but never, did I choose Bon Jovi Yoga.
And my YouTube channel is even safer still: It is not called Rock Star Yoga nor Bon Jovi Yoga, but Suzanne Beenackers.
If I ever get taken down by YouTube, you will know my name.
And therefor, you will know where to find me.

And post-pandemic there will be yoga here in Nijmegen, for Dutch Bon Jovi fans (or yoga fans!) But I will make sure that just like a concert, anybody can join. 
So you can come to see me.
Because you know my name.

And our yoga on YouTube will not contain music – which is not ideal to really rock our yoga. But it does mean that what we build there, cannot be taken away.
Yes, we’ll be on YouTube, and that could take me down. Or “it”, all the way to internet itself, could be taken down.
Same with Twitter; Sure. I could lose the account.
Rock Star Writer on Facebook: Ditto. Could lose it on a bad day, and it could disappear like social media platforms before it.

But they cannot take my name. Ever.
You, seeing my real name every time we do a video, means that if we ever lose each other, you can find me.

They can shut accounts down, but they cannot shut us down. 

For as long as I can, and as often as I can, I therefor promise you, right here and now,
I, Suzanne Beenackers, founded in 1972,  will be there for you. Always.

Just like Asbury Park.

~Suzanne
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And So It Begins: Bon Jovi Yoga

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Jon Bon Jovi stretching at Live Aid Philadelphia by Mark Weiss 1986

Nothing is as important as passion. 
No matter what you want to do with your life, be passionate.

Jon Bon Jovi

Or as Katrina Ruth formulated it this morning – yes, I’m quoting this fully aware that I may run the risk of losing you by tossing in a less familiar name:
Katrina Ruth blog 2 November 2021:
“This is about the difference between doing what you do because it is WHAT YOU CAME HERE TO DO.
As opposed to – doing things to get places. To be someone. To be that next level you. To prove something. To GET – ‘there’.”

Which is the most fitting, most to-the-frickin’ point, as well as a very welcome probably 4000 word-long, reminder of what it really is all about.
Do what you came here to do.
So no! When I launch Bon Jovi Yoga it is not to distract you from your purpose, not to let you relax from a life that is unfulfilling, and that you will regret when you’re six feet under.
Although by then it’s probably a little too late for that.

When I say, “Come do my thing, join my thing!” it is not because I want to Suckerberg the attention span right out of your soul, and plaster it over my ego and make money of it.
It is not.

There is a reason I open this blogpost quoting not just Jon Bon Jovi but also Katrina Ruth (and this is her YouTube), the rock star business coach who will change your business, life and beyond of you give her as much as 3 seconds of your time;
There is a reason I do not quote Patanjali.
I do not quote Deepak – do we get we say fucking? let’s say fucking – I do not quote Deepak fucking Chopra, nor a famous yoga teacher – and the last one can’t be quoted because they don’t exist.
There are no yoga teachers so famous that non-yoga doing people know them.
And so far the only yogis who were able to make a name for themselves outside of the yoga community, proved to be sex offenders. That community has been through a lot.

The Tony Robbinses of yoga have all come crashing down from their pedestals so hard, it is no wonder there are no yoga teachers famous enough to quote from. I feel an immature desire to yell: “There are no yoga teachers to quote from BECAUSE THEY’RE ALL IN JAIL!” but that is not true.

But I do think that the exponential rise of yoga from the late 20th century onward, has come at a terrible price and an awareness that we must create safer communities.
That yoga must inspire and empower to live your own life. Never again, must we create a situation where yoga students become dependent on their teachers or their gurus.

I really believe there is not a yoga teacher in 2021 and beyond who will not feel that teaching yoga comes with tremendous responsibility, and that we must, and will, learn from the past.
And what “I” am offering with Bon Jovi Yoga, although the key is of course there is no “I” in this story, what I am creating is a community.
Not a pedestal. And since we’d okay-ed the word fuck: 
I’m not creating a fucking pedestal.

I, WE, have bypassed the trap of both yoga being not that inspiring to people who do not feel drawn to it,
AND the trap of yoga communities revolving around a megalomaniac teacher,
by letting our community revolve around our love for Bon Jovi.
They’re the object of our attention.

So quoting Katrina Ruth – who is an absolute stellar coach to follow if you are interested in taking life by the horns (f.e. on her Facebook) – this week we start our journey of WHAT WE CAME HERE TO DO and not a journey of doing it for whatever.
Not to get a better body, feel more worthy, or to find balance – because our bodies are fine as they are, we are worthy, and I’ll take my chances betting that for us balance does not come from sitting still on a mat.
We need a little bit more fun than that. Make that a lot more!

Bon Jovi Yoga it is.

You will be able to watch BON JOVI YOGA unfold its angel wings on my two YouTube channels both English and Dutch, AND I have two books out, that I have not shown to you but I just noticed there’s a 20% discount this week on the site. I’d be doing you a disservice if I would not mention those today as well.

So hop on the wagon!

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I know I owe you a better explanation, and that this explanation of what Bon Jovi Yoga is, or what you’ll be a part of, once you get on the wagon, and get hooked :), was limited, at best.
But we’ve got a lifetime together.
Bon Jovi Yoga really IS here to stay, and we’ll probably be seeing each other more often than you can possibly imagine.

For now suffice to say that, from a very narrow perspective, yoga is my fan art. Like other people draw, or remaster concerts, or write fan fiction;
Same way I create Bon Jovi yoga.
So my socials and my YouTube channels are fan communities, where we do yoga.

There really is no limit to where it ends. I could start teaching classes in Nijmegen, you could visit as a tourist, or I can come to your home town and teach a night of Bon Jovi Yoga there.

But whatever it is, we’ll do it with passion and not for an outcome, but with sense of purpose and belonging.
We do it because that’s what we came here to do. Let me say that again, yelling immaturely.

“We do Bon Jovi Yoga BECAUSE THAT’S WHAT WE FUCKING CAME HERE TO DO.”

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“Susie’s” Nikki Sixx Inspired Confessions

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Nikki Sixx, showing a beautiful angel bearing a cross- tattoo.

{ “Susie” refers to me, Suzanne. I am not the Susie from the book The First 21. } 

The new Nikki Sixx book, The First 21, is one of those books where just like a movie, you get sucked in.
You think you’re going to read it with kind of a helicopter view, because you find the topic interesting or, what used to be the case when I actually read, when you find the writer interesting.
Since me having a thing for male writers ended 7 years ago, I wasn’t really expecting it. And maybe me reading Nikki Sixx is indeed not a part of that.
The writers I used to read were Dutch, they were my age or younger, and none of them were rock stars. 

So for the first time since 2014, I m reading with heart and soul, I’m totally into this.
But the deeper I get into this book, the more I realize that my relationship to Nikki Sixx is rooted in something.
That this is more than a book, a writer, a rock star of even a man I have a crush on.

Looking back, I can see how I’ve been leaning into his topics, into his work, from a very young age. It’s like an invisible thread, going through my life. And from that perspective, this infatuation with his latest book, cannot be called a surprise.

Maybe this is the right place to drop a truth bomb about something I meant to discuss sooner, and I probably will get back to it in future work;
But I think there is one MAJOR factor that Nikki Sixx’ lyrics as well as Bon Jovi lyrics have in common, and that explains why certain people will feel drawn to them. Yet I ve not heard anyone speaking about this.
But they’re Catholic.
The lyrics about God, devil, salvation, praying on the knees, water, redemption, sinning, confessions and- need I go on?
Or point taken?
It’s music that will speak to you if you, your parents, or your grandparents were Catholic.
Maybe protestant, but I think I know enough to determine this as Catholic symbolism.

But aside from that symbolism that resonates with me, there were more signs.
More things I managed to miss, where I now think:
“This thing for Nikki? This has been going on for a very long time….”

And I thought it was a good idea to I share that.
In particular if I m ever going to write about his book The First 21- that you know I did not step in at:
“Oh yes! Nikki Sixx…. he was in Mötley Crüe.”
Since I intend to stick around both as a writer and as a YouTuber, this needs to be cleared up.
This personal, recent and ancient, history of me and Nikki Sixx, needs explaining so that you understand why I am horribly biased.

So. It all “started” in 2019, when after a period of 25 years, I became a Bon Jovi fan again and I met a lot of other fans who were not just into Bon Jovi, but also into Nikki Sixx.
In female fandom, the combination of being into Jon Bon Jovi and Nikki Sixx was actually a pretty common one, and that’s how I came into contact with Nikki Sixx too, in particular with his writing.

I said “started” in 2019, with quotation marks, because then I m not counting me writing out Nikki Sixx’ name in my agenda in the 80s, and me drawing him in pen.
I’m not counting Mötley Crüe practically being spoon fed in the 80s to anyone tuning in to MTV’s Headbangers Ball (which I was), and listening to a Dutch radio show called Vara’s Vuurwerk (which I also was).
In the Netherlands Mötley Crüe never made it big mainstream, but at the same time they were so much part of metal and rock that it was absolutely impossible to miss them if that was your genre (which it was).

I also noticed on Nikki Sixx’s photos as a teen, in The First 21, that he and my first boyfriend had looked alike. A lot. And that boyfriend too, was a bass player.
And in that book The First 21, Nikki Sixx says his first girlfriend’s name was Susie.
They were very shy with each other, and didn’t really know how to make it work or let it evolve. Exactly how my first boyfriend and me, were.
So in the 80s I, Suzanne or “Susie” to some, was dating a guy who played bass and looked like Nikki Sixx. But again, something I did not realize until October 2021, so that does not count either.

Which is why- not counting those Mötley Crüe and Nikki Sixx moments – “it”, the conscious part, started first half of 2019.
After the introduction to Nikki Sixx by other Bon Jovi fans, I started listening to an audio recording of the book The Heroin Diaries, based on his 80s diary.
Nikki Sixx’ The Heroin Diaries, is a book from 2007, that made it mainstream, against all expectations.
For the audio book Nikki Sixx reads it, with actors playing the parts other people have contributed, such as friends, family members, the band and people who toured with the band.
Slash, for example, is a good friend of Nikki, and he is one of the people who contributed to The Heroin Diaries.

The Heroin Diaries has as a subtitle: “A year in the life of a shattered rock star”
And it is based on Nikki’s original diary, from December 1986 to December 1987, when he was addicted to heroin.
It was for the first time since the 80s I was reading something like this, the topic had completely dropped off my radar.
It brought back memories of the 80s, when the topic of heroin addiction was something I read about.

I must have been about 13 or 14 years old.
The first was a German book Christiane F., which has been translated worldwide under different titles but the original one was;
Wir Kinder vom Bahnhof Zoo (1978)
And the second book, also on teen drug addiction, was a Dutch one, Het Verrotte Leven van Floortje Bloem – Yvonne Keuls (1982)

Next to that I was either personally fascinated with musicians who died of drugs, but I also remember that it was a topic that was covered in our music classes in school. But by then I already knew enough to actually save my mark for a test I had otherwise done poorly.
Our teacher was so impressed with the paragraph I had written on the final question, about rock stars who had died prematurely, where I could even name rock stars that had not been mentioned in the book and I remember I wrote about the context of fame and drug use (probably uncalled for), and he gave me a higher grade.
So obviously, I was already studying this topic, and did not learn about drug use by rock stars, just in school.
But it was definitely “a phase”, as they call it. It was as if I wanted, or even needed, to study it, to understand what it was. Or maybe to protect myself. I was also raised in the “Just Say No” time period, but aside from one Punky Brewster episode I cannot remember that ever hitting mainstream in the Netherlands.
We didn’t have very prominent or explicit drug education in the Netherlands, and soft-drugs are legal here. We only had a campaign to not start smoking as a teen but that was it.
Heroin addiction felt far away.

I think one of the reasons listening to the Heroin Diaries in 2019, made a totally different impression than studying the topic in the 80s, is because now that I am so much older, and can feel how much it costs, how much you need to regulate and be conscious about, in order to be functional;
I am absolutely baffled by the idea of touring, and then drinking and doing drugs too.
But at the time, in the 80s?
The idea of rock stars doing drugs was just as normal as, I don’t know, as professional athletes training.
Or ballet dancers working out 8 hours a day.
All this to illustrate that me studying hard drugs had little to do with me trying to understand the world I was living in, and everything with me being fascinated by a world I was absolutely not living in.
It must have been my way to align with it, or feel if it was something I wanted to pursue.

When now I think, how in the world do you DO all that, the traveling, the touring, the everything, and NOT take excellent care of your health?
Listening to The Heroin Diaries audio in 2019, should have been a wake up call for me, and for anyone struggling career-wise-
that considering the fact that Mötley Crüe, including an addicted to heroin Nikki Sixx, actually TOURED?
We’ve all been called out as underachievers.
That’s how I see it.

But The Heroin Diaries was more than that. In particular the audio.
Because Nikki Sixx is not just a very pleasant narrator, with a beautiful speaking voice, doing a better job recording that book than anyone could have done for him;
But Nikki Sixx is most of all a thinker. And it’s relational.
So the books you read are all about relationships with people, but also relationships to a wide array of topics and situations.
And about HOW he relates.

The writer Nikki Sixx, is first and foremost – and I am sure there is a word for this but since I stopped reading in 2014 don’t ask me! – but he’s what I will call for now, he’s a thinker about relationships.
About whom and what he relates to, and how he relates to them. Or how they relate to each other.

And to then listen to Nikki Sixx, with your headphones, to this 11 hour recording, reading The Heroin Diaries, going through his own rough and ready diary from what may have been the toughest year in his life;
then reading the chapters he wrote around them, putting them in perspective.
Oh man…. you’re gonna fall for Nikki Sixx.

If you listen to Nikki Sixx reading The Heroin Diaries, your entire idea of who he is will change.

On Google Play:
The Heroin Diaries: Ten Year Anniversary Edition: A Year in the Life of a Shattered Rock Star

So in 2019 already, I considered myself a fan of his work. Oh – I m skipping the band Sixx AM, but I absolutely adore their music, I left it out for clarity’s sake.
But check them out as well! Sixx A.M. on YouTube

However, what I’ve covered so far, the Catholic roots, studying hard drugs and rock stars at a young age, getting Motley Crue spoon fed, the boyfriend bass player who looked like him, and writing “Nikki Sixx” in my agenda because I thought the name was magical;
Are all futile compared to the biggie.
The one where I realized:
“Fuck.”

Because of circumstances I do not want to get into (and I will not!) Nikki Sixx has become part of my sexual language, my sexuality identity, desires, experiences. All I can say, is that it does not have anything to do with him.
Not with The Heroin Diaries.
Not with The First 21.
Not with Sixx AM.

But that, yeah, like I said, a combination of circumstances, some of choice and some coincidental, his name, became synonymous for sex.

Although the part I did by choice?
Considering the preferences of other female Bon Jovi fans, considering my personal history, and my “thinking, relational” obsession; Considering all those things, maybe me adopting Nikki Sixx as the personification of sex was not so much of a choice.

But an inevitability.

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The best of album HITS, including the new track The First 21, from SIXX A.M. is on YouTube:

And then the sex goes in here.

booktrailer for The First 21 by Nikki Sixx

Intro.
Voice over, snippet from the first words of Livin’ On A Prayer:
Narrator (Jon Bon Jovi): “Once upon a time, not so long ago”

* insert first tweet Oct 22nd, illustrating Suzanne’s waning faith she’s welcome in Bon Jovi fandom*
(clicking the play icon on the gif pays off)

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Photo from Melissa Coler Twitter @MACSIXX https://twitter.com/MACSIXX/status/1452034362682269696

One of the things I still want to do, is go through my old 80s school agendas and look for what I know is there: Two, maybe more, references to Nikki Sixx.

At least one of them is me “just” writing out his name.
Even as a teen, I understood there was something magical about it.
Where a name usually has some meaning, either to ourselves if we chose it, or to our parents when they gave it;
Calling yourself Nikki Sixx?
Was a whole different ballgame.

The name Nikki Sixx is a work of art in itself. 

This week Nikki Sixx released his fourth book, called The First 21, and it’s about the first 21 years of his life when his name was not yet Nikki Sixx. When he had not yet chosen his name.
You can shop for The First 21 by Nikki Sixx, as well as for the album from his second band Sixx A.M. that was released simultaneously.
“Second band”, yes.
You have until the end of this post, to answer the question what Nikki Sixx’ first band is.

The Sixx A.M. HITS playlist can also be found at the bottom of this post,
and to purchase the book you may also want to check out
this tweet where I already looked up the direct links to buy the book, for four different countries.

News interviews, podcasts, YouTube interviews, zoom connections, studio interviews;
For the past few days there has been an avalanche of Nikki Sixx on my timeline.
Which may explain why I was starting to feel a familiar yet unwelcome restlessness, in my lower belly.
A restlessness that I recognized in the movies Venom (2018) and part 2 (2021).

“Venom”, from the title, is an extraterrestrial entity that has a symbiotic relationship to a human, Eddie Brock. Venom is the wild one, the uncontrolled one. But Venom is also the fascinating one, the unapologetic one, and definitely the funniest of the two.
Everything Venom says is a one liner, he’s a talk show host’s wet dream.

But he is also of course, entirely uncivilized. And a bigger problem than that; His species need nutrients that can only be found in brains. 
If Venom would comply with his host Eddie, and stop biting people’s head off, he, Venom, would become severely malnutritioned and die.
And with that Eddie too, because they inhabit the same body. 

Venom is the stronger one, the enigmatic one, the superhero of the two, and ever since Venom has started living in Eddie’s body and the two started their symbiotic relationship, Eddie’s life has improved in terms of excitement and adventure.
And women absolutely adore him both as Eddie and as Venom.
Since Eddie has Venom in him, he has not had a dull moment, and yet Venom 2 Let There Be Carnage, largely revolves around Eddie’s attempts to get rid of Venom.
And not just because he bites people’s head off, and it requires a lot of effort to limit Venom’s foraging habits to only eating the bad guys, but also because Venom is an extremely disruptive force to live with.

story continues below the trailer, that illustrated how difficult it is to live with Venom:

My inner Venom too, is a disruptive force to live with.
It gets me kicked out of groups.
It gets me slut shamed.
It gets me talked about behind my back.
It gets me blocked on Twitter.
Ghosted.

And yet, of course, it is this feral, untamed side of me, my inner-Venom, that is going to make the biggest contribution. That is going to leave her mark. 

I ve known from the start that my plan to make Bon Jovi yoga videos, was not accommodating her. There was not even a small corner, a small percentage of poorly lit videos “we” would shoot when I was feeling so badly, a normal video would not come out anyway;
Not even that.

My inner Venom was not to interfere when I was making Bon Jovi yoga videos. The name Bon Jovi, associated with inclusive, family appropriate, uplifting music, would be honored.
It would be kept clean.

But since it’s almost three months since I posted my announcement for Bon Jovi yoga, you can see how that is working out.
It isn’t.
And the reason it is not, is because my Venom wants a part.

The “overall inappropriate” part of me, to quote the most explicit complaint I received about that side of me, wants in.
No, let me rephrase:
It wants THE FUCK in. 

But just like Eddie Brock, I wanted to be loved for being the real me, the nice me, and not for this part that felt so entirely over the top.
I fully understood why my inner Venom was too much in particular in mixed, friendly communities like Bon Jovi fandom.

I GOT that.
And I respected them for being clear on their boundaries and keeping the community safe.

It’s just that, well, that side of me is “all” I have to offer.
Without my inner Venom, I am not just plain, but I would also be thoroughly unhappy. Just like Eddie Brock.
Venom is my life force. She makes me come alive, gives me blushes on my cheeks, and turns me into this funny, sexual, and yes inappropriate, woman.

Without my Venom, and without giving her what she needs, I will not just perish and come to nothing.
I will die.

Thinking I could turn myself into a friendly, goodhearted, Bon Jovi yoga teacher was as unrealistic as it was unhealthy and, frankly, undesirable.
If someone else can do that, go for it.
It’s not my path, that much is sure.

So me and my inner-Venom, have made amends and decided we are going to do it together.
We’ll be making Bon Jovi yoga videos where we will make many inappropriate jokes.
And trust me when I say that yoga offers ample opportunity for those.

But next to that, “we”, my inner Venom and me, are going to make Nikki Sixx yoga videos, where my most sexual, most out-there part of my personality, can really shine.
Where my inner Venom gets to take the stage and the leash comes off.
So the most unadulterated, honest, raw, yoga videos will be named after the most unadulterated, honest, raw rock star of them all.
Nikki Sixx.

Ten hours after the tweet where I said that although I am a Bon Jovi fan, but sometimes feel more LA, and less New Jersey, and wanted to be loved for the Venom part of me too;
I made another tweet.

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Nikki Sixx, showing a beautiful angel bearing a cross- tattoo.

This tweet said:
[On] Oct. 22 @SixxAM released their best of called HITS
This album is THE best way to get acquainted with this second band from Nikki Sixx, est 2007

Mild spanking if you don’t know what his first band is.

Oh no, a little harder than that.

The first band from Nikki Sixx is Mötley Crüe.
Bon Jovi yoga will begin this week, on my YouTube
And my first yoga lesson to you, is to never hide who you really are.

The world needs your Venom.
Just like the world needs Nikki Sixx.

Oh no.
A little harder than that.

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My name is Suzanne Beenackers and I am 32 years late. And 2 Weeks

As I collect these photos for you of a very clearly Rock Star Suzanne, ever since the dawn of time (the 80s), I wonder;
HOW is it possible to lose yourself when you’re over 45?

When I look back I can identify the two biggest threats, the two biggest potential conflicts between my surroundings and what was expected of me on one side;
And who I was and always had been, on the other.

The first was the business world that was waiting for me after graduating from university, which I turned my back on, by simply never showing up.
I didn’t even say: “Hell no!”
I just never showed up, and no one came looking.

And the second one was when I took my yoga trainings and entered the realm of yoga teachers with whom I – where “I” stands for the real me, that chick rolling cigarettes at 16 – had absolutely zero in common with what we wanted out of life (Sex and rock n roll!)
Yet I just dove in head first, became a vegetarian, listened to mantras, yoga-ed my body on a daily basis, and still made it out unharmed.

In fact, as the photo collage shows, in 2015 I started calling my vinyasa power yoga classes, Rockstar Yoga.

It was then still written as one word; “Rockstar”
Because I had ran it by the title of
the Nickelback song.
Which, as I found out in 2019 when I started this website Rock Star Writer, then still called Rock Star Yoga, is not the correct way to spell it.

Just like the catchy yet shallow interpretation of what it means to be a “Rockstar”, the spelling of the Rockstar song was not something you should ever use as a benchmark. 

So how is it possible to have such a great start, effectively navigating your jeans-clad booty around the pitfalls of three decades, and then 2018, 2019, 2020, 2021?
Bam.
Done.
Everything yoga related, anything professional, was stopped and although I still feel very much like a yoga practitioner and a yoga teacher, it doesn’t show.

Late 2020 I ended the lease of the yoga studio, and as of January 1st 2021 I no longer have a business.
Nor do I intend to ever have any one of those again.

Yet despite this:
I am a yoga teacher.

Yet despite this:
I am in business.

I know very well what my professional future looks like.

And yet….
Sometimes I FEAR that I can’t do it.

That the calling I see before me, where I will not just resurrect my own yoga practice and my professional yoga career better than it ever was;
But also revolutionize it as EXACTLY that SEX & ROCK N ROLL thing that we ALL want and need it to be! 

Those are the moments my heart grows cold thinking it’s too late.

That the girl who rolled her own cigarettes managed to get through puberty, college and an entire career as a yoga teacher, ended up empty handed.
And not just because she quit smoking.

I am writing this on a Friday, listening to Nickelback from the albums and concerts around 2007.
The time when the single Rockstar was released.
On a side note, Nickelback was the only highly successful band, who became hated for reasons no one really recalls. Although here is an article that explains why this was their fate.
It wasn’t because they misspelled rock star.

But even more disturbing than listening to Nickelback, I m writing this after yet another two week delay to what I thought was the start of my new life.
It was initially caused by something big and important that I m giving my care and attention (it’s not about me, so I m not going to share what it is), and was then further slowed down by a health issue that seemed to be related to those events but that now appears to be something else entirely.

In fact, the acute yet fairly innocent health issue may have revealed the reason why I ve been waking up sick for months and months on end now.
Why the first hours of my day are spent feeling so ill, that I even check my temperature to see if, in the unlikely case I will get up today, I can’t because I need to self-quarantine.

And then?
Well, then I m not just totally fever free, but totally fine before noon as well. 

So the new health issue that came up, may have revealed the cause of that messed up morning fallout. And it’s something annoying but totally innocent and treatable.
The final test results are due next week. *)

Having all that addressed and sorted out delayed what I considered the start of my new and improved, “on track and on top” life, as well.

Yet there are moments when these extra days of delay, turning into two extra weeks, get to me.

That I think:

“This has been going on since 2018.
You ve lost it Suzanne.
You had diplomas, a career, a business, AND you went to Bon Jovi 2019 coming back fully inspired KNOWING you were going to bring it home TEACHING Rock Star Yoga!

But you didn’t, now did you Suzanne?
You start-stopped, start-stopped, didn’t you Suzanne?

And now it’s this complicated thing that came on your path and that has you occupied, and you wake up sick every morning, but really?
Has this not been going on from way before that?”

Yes, there are moments like that…..
And yet still.

No!
This will happen.
All of it.

Rock Star Yoga, Bon Jovi Yoga, doing it, teaching it, rocking it.
That’s what it’s gonna be, and I m not going to change one long rock n roll hair of it!
AND I’m rebooting my business channel Rock Your Business as well.

Because BOTH yoga and business deserve to be done in a way WE can identify with.
Yes WE, because this is not just about me;
It’s about YOU!

About us.

We, the ones who do not belong in the corporate business world,
not in the yoga world,
and no not even in the normal entrepreneurial world.

We just don’t, and you know it.

Going from hand-rolled cigarettes to frickin’ incense, is a painfully accurate description of how I lost DECADES of my life. 

I sold my soul to mediocrity, and now I can’t even get out of bed in the morning.
I don’t even care what the test results bring up next week;
This shit is as serious as it fucking gets.

It’s called throwing your life away.

And you?
Getting up inspired and taking life by the horns?
Or have you sinned as badly as I have, and cut yourself in half in order to fit in?

It’s time to be whole.
To be fully you.

To stand up and show the world WHO YOU ARE.
WHO WE ARE

Badass motherfuckers.

And you know it. 

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