This is my longest video series to date, and I actually already shot three of these videos yesterday.
Working until midnight.
And after going to bed, guess what?
I GOT BACK UP!
In the middle of the night, I deleted everything from YouTube.
and adjusted the previous blog post, taking out a coaching offer.
Everything had suddenly felt SO wrong.
Afterwards I slept like a baby.
So what had happened?
Well, after a tumultuous Tuesday, I had sat down and broke down everything I had learned and decided I was going to turn up the heat.
I spent hours filming, redoing, uploading.
But the reason I found myself jumping out of bed and frantically taking down EVERYTHING I had created, is because sometimes topics are so hard, that you are not satisfied with how they come out initially.
That the truth is there, but the “Story” is not. Not yet.
So I started from scratch and redid all my work today, and yes.
They’re spot on now.
Still uncomfortably honest, and I may go out the moment I post them, to get my mind off them-
but this is the way they’re supposed to be.
Here they are: 4 different videos with Bon Jovi titles. And moving through the decades, like we always do.
On finding out I had been playing small creating yoga videos (!!)
And had also left way too much space for playing small after a social hiccup.
What we can all learn from this 2nd album from Bon Jovi, which was a do or die moment in their career, is that if you meet resistance or if things don’t feel right, the answer is never to play it safe and play small;
But to turn up the heat, and go bolder and bigger.
The Fire Inside is from 5 disk set “100.000.000 Bon Jovi fans can’t be wrong”
and was dated back to the 90s.
The song is about creative passion.
This video is on how I had marginalized my purpose work (the fire inside) to being this thing I was going to PLAN OUT (??!!)
at taking place in 1 hour and 45 minutes on weeknights.
Remembering Freddie Mercury in the movie Bohemian Rhapsody, when he is told off for being late:
“I’m a performer, darling,
not a Swiss train conductor.”
Ending by looking forward (although that might not be the appropriate choice of words here!) to the third video, and how it was already quit the ordeal yesterday.
The story about why I quit teaching yoga, that I never told…..
Oh, the biggie.
This week I discovered something about my sexuality, that ran a lot deeper than anecdotal events and stories which I may or may not have shared.
I discovered the one major thing, that will always make my sexuality threatening to others.
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AND new yoga videos coming up!
(because in video 1/4 you’ll see me realizing I had been playing small there too)
Are you Dutch?
Will soon kickstart my new Dutch Yoga channel!